yesterday was the last day for selling ice cream. means, im back to square one: jobless.

going to look for retail jobs bah. got lobang tell me ok! (:



its cny. but i doesnt have the mood. even though i have plans going on.

and its kinda sad when my classmates are planning for a cny outing and yet i cant join them. =(

i think last year they have steamboat but i cant join them (due to tution) and now, i cant join them for visiting. hais.



by the way,

my grandma passed away last thursday morning and there are alot of issues going on internally. i dont know lah. most likely we will drift apart without my grandma.

though i not say very close to her BUT still, she's my only grandparent. and though she's always the one who ask me to faster get married. -.-

but she has live through her life and i think her only wish, if you call that one, is to have a great-grandchild. BUT THEN. our family tadition has always been late marriage which i wont bear much hope if i was her.

ANYWAY. it was a very tiring week running to and fro from school to grandma's place. plus having to go through rituals. on one night, we even have a very unique ritual which i have never seen before in my life. quite cool.

RIP, grandma. you will always remain in our hearts. (:



lotsa things to blog but too lazy. next time bahh. (:

anyway, its not my business and i shouldnt bother to reply you. -.- go away. why must you always pour oil to my fire everytime? its VERY annoying. i cant be bothered to talk to you. for many occasions i feel like just blocking you off. i know you will be reading. YES, YOU. -.-



anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! MOOO~

all at one go:
14/01 happy birthday, MIAO!
15/01 happy birthday, JHAWNNY!
16/01 happy birthday, PRIYA! (though lost contact with her =/)
20/01 happy birthday, XINYI!
22/01 happy birthday, JIANWEI!
25/01 happy birthday, HUIYU! (drink more water~ =PP)
29/01 happy birthday, JUNHUI!




i want to complain about something. if you cant take it, dont read. read it at your own risk.

i wrote in my msn nick: i still believe in fairness.

those who knows me well know that i dont really like my sister.

some people may say, hope you get strike by lightning or whatsoever. but if you know what she has done for me, i know you wont say that.

from the day she slapped me on the face (not once, but twice), i already hold grudges against her. its something i cannot tolerate.

a few days ago, i hanged my laundry outside. and she added her laundry on top it. then when we was about to go out, she took out her laundry, and put it back outside. later she told me to keep the laundry.

WTS? cant she just bring in the laundry? why do she has to do EXTRA WORK? i always help her keep her laundry and i never complain about it. now, bringing my laundry in seems to be like killing her. that's so sad. (and she's started to bring in the past that i never helped her keep her laundry. and HELLO, your laundry like so heavy how to help you? mine is like WAY LIGHTER as compared to yours can. zzz)

so this afternoon i did similar things to her. mum asked me to bring the wintermelon from the pot to her because i was supposed to finished the chicken in the pot too. i said from the kitchen to take it herself because I WONT HELP HER. and i went back to my seat. in between there's alot of conversations which i wont elaborate much. but, still. i refused to helped her take.

and JUST NOW, i kept the laundry from the balcony and her laundry are in the same bamboo stick as my laundry. SO, i took the whole bamboo stick after taking out my laundry and passed to her.

thanks, i know im a kind person. AT THE VERY LEAST, i still bring the bamboo in front of her and not put it back to the balcony. IM NICE RIGHT. then she started complaining saying what i did in the afternoon and stuffs. WTF. who's right and wrong man.

the whole morning when she vacummed the damn floor she keep complaining about the vacumm cleaner claiming it to be stupid because the thing can turn 90 degrees and whatsoever shit. well, i think its user-problem because i have never seen my mum complaining it and she's has been using that vacumm clearner for the past few years.

it just means that HOW LONG she hasnt be helping it out in household chores.

sometimes i just dont really understand. the other day we were shifting the shoes rack, she help also never help. NEVER EVEN TOUCH IT. but her shoes was like almost 50% of the whole pile of shoes. everything she say she wanna throw but still put it in the cupboard. -.- dumb or what.

then when she walked out of the door, i said: EH!

she did hesitate to paused for awhile but still walked out. WTF MAN. we took the whole morning tidying up the damn rack but she didnt even bother to care. all i wanted to say was the whole row its her shoes and its up to her whether she wants to throw it away. ITS THAT HARD TO RESPOND?!!!!

man. communication breakdown. 5 years really that amazing. i cant communicate with my younger sister also. she keep saying i was unreasonable but i think she's like the one. she say i never do work la. ETCETC. but who's the one 'bbq-ing' the ba gua, fish cakes and the pork? who's the one helping out in putting the sweets in the container?

even if its an easy job, at least i still do it properly. let you mop the floor only you mop like swimming pool. though you always there to help out but it because im still in school right! -.- zzzz
and its another 5 years apart between us.

(NO OFFENSE. if you want to complain, scold it to yourself. this place its just for me to write out my thoughts just like how you got boyfriend and blog, respectively, to complain to.)

♥ 11:03 PM