HELLO~

cts are over over over oveR ovER oVER OVERRRRR~

hahaaaas.



had a hard time typing out this post out cause i think i injured my small finger on the left. and i always use that finger to type and press shift. =/ pain~

and now my tummy hurts a lot. =/ dont know why. zzz





this time round. i feel my cts sucks a lot.

i didnt put in as much as effort as i used to. i continued to watch tv every night. 6pm for coffee prince, 7pm for 不良笑花 and 9pm for 小娘惹. LOL didnt really catch as much shows as now. dont know why. im even looking forward to the 一枝梅 show! HAHAA!

and because i keep watching shows and i neglect my studies. its really damn worst. even my mum and my sis keep nagging. the way i slack seems to have no cts like that. haha!

so i screw up two out of three of the papers. at least i feel i got something to write for pmkt. the rest all damn chui. som theory i anyhow crap. and i remember the wrong info. so in the end i wasnt even answering the question. 30marks gone. upon 50marks. =x

so xinni right. i sometimes wonder i should have go for engineering course. most of their modules is calculations can!! and bs mostly is memorising work. i suck at this kind of thing. always memorise the wrong info. chui~

but i believe, living in denial and what nicole says, that they will mark according to what i argue. maybe one or two points are correct? =x hopefully bah.





went driving these two days straight.

thursday after pmkt paper and after joining them for lunch and orchard, went for the lesson.

maybe because i didnt able to book a lesson last week. so this week, i kinda forget what had been taught to me. the instructor says i slow learner sia. =(

he keep scolding and scolding (more of saying me bah). and i stalled the engine a few times. =x kinda disappointed with myself. even a couple of times i feel so pek chek with myself. i cant even understand WHY i didnt step on the clutch, WHY i step on the brake instead of the accelerator.

kinda irritating but, yeah. it confused me the whole time. when to step accelerator. when to step brake. seriously, if people like me who cant coordinate their limbs effectively, i wouldnt recommend you to take manual driving bah. lol.



today's lesson was better. kinda get hold of how to drive. he keep saying and saying. though he never really raise his voice, but yeah. nobody likes to keep repeating himself/herself. he even hit me with the metal pointer. no bruise but its really damn pain when he hit me. lol. wont lose to a cane la. lol.

went out to drive for around 30minutes. it was fun though. drive around some ulu pandan roads. never been to the places before. maybe because buses werent even travel on those roads.

thursday lesson i went the fastest speed up to 20km/hr maximum and my heart nearly dropped out. =x today went up all the way to reaching 60km/hr and the feeling was damn SHIOK. hahhaaas. woots~ =DD

but i stalled engine on the road twice. or once? cant remember. lucky the drivers behind are kind enough. ^^

and i lost my sense of direction again. got once i drive drive drive. then the instructor says, "OK! let's go back to the carpark." i was like, where? and i stopped behind a bus because the bus blocked my way. then i look around and realised, the exit is just in front of the bus!! LOL.

that's so sad. gotta jiayou liao. next week wont be taking any lessons. =/ hopefully wont chui for my next lesson. (:





looking forward to christmas and new year. HAHAA

planning my holidays and what im going to do. now on the list is to go for outings, camp, spring cleaning plus, BAKING!

shall bring my baking to another level. WAHHAHAA see ahxin's power!

gonna prepare a list of what to do and what to expect for christmas. WAHAHAA!! if anybody want to drop a pressie for me.. my christmas socks is always available. (:



by the way, my blogskin got some error. guess the person remove the link from photobucket. anyway, i replace a background photo temporarily. tried a nice blogskin just now but the code got problem.

this kind of thing. really pisses you off the butt.

and imma lazy to do myself. because i would confirm feel so pek chek that i gave up. i still has an incomplete background skin. =/

but yeah. if any kind soul would want to tailor a blogskin just for ME~! i will be thankful enough. (:





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and the more i expect, the more i disappointed.

just felt disappointed all of a sudden. its like, everything is so wrong. since its an outing, of course the more the merrier. and the more, you want to include people in.

if sometimes i cant make it for outings, friends nag at me. but all they want is to include you inside the outing. it is not an unreasonable act, is it?!

i chose to remain single, its because i cant commit. and if i were to commit, i would certainly neglect my friends. because its impossible to multi-task. and it even more impossible if your boyfriend will give you all the freedom you want to. that wouldnt be called as boyfriend already.

i may not understand the true chemistry between two people, because i never experience it before. but it will be hurtful for people in relationship to comment something they might think its nothing. so what if we have no experience? isnt lending a listening ear to a FRIEND that counts?

i got a crush on a guy and i tell my friends about it. i saw an eyecandy and i talks to them about it. they might feel its very ridiculous but, a friend is a friend who will stand by you and listen to you crap your way through.

and the most ridiculous thing, i find, its when your friend neglects you for a boyfriend. that's so sad. it means to say the feelings between your friends is not thicker than you with your boyfriend.

its not that i dont want my friends to have boyfriend. this kind of age, is teenagers would confirm want to fall in love right! even i feel like to. but you gotta balance between your boyfriend and your friends.


end of nagging. not directing at anybody. just a sudden thought. no offense. no comments allow on this topic.

♥ 11:19 PM